It is with heavy heavy heart I have to say this. This is Carol, brandi's guardian. She has gotten very sick and is in a lot of pain. I will have to send her over the bridge shortly. She can hardly walk or eat, and has lost too much weight, and it just isn't fair to prolong her life when there is no quality of life. She is 19. She has been with me longer than anyone I can name. She has seen me through a lot of good and very bad times. Her cries of pain and the look in her eyes and her weak body tell me that she can do no more. Oh, you should see that look. It is tearing my heart apart. She has been going downhill the last couple of weeks, and right now she is looking at me and crying.
I have to do this alone, and that is hurting me so much. I need a companion in my life, and the hole she will leave will be frightening. But it has to be. I can't be selfish, if she is suffering.
I love her more than anything and I know you all know that feeling, yourselves.
If you could help pay for her final vet bills, that would be a fine tribute to her. It's around $400. I hate to ask, but this is way out of my budget. I am already still past due about $300 with my own medical insurance. She will be cremated, and sit on my bookcase with her sister.
I can't write any more right now.
I will later.
brandi will be put to sleep around 8 pm central time tonight.
please remember us in your prayers